Twice, Without Excuse, Nat Sever Brent speaks out about her mental health.
“I’m in a good place with my cricket and as a human being,” she says.
The all-rounder has been the rock of England for 10 years, always the calmest in any crisis.
On and off the field she rarely delivers – her more articulate wife Katherine described her as a yin to a yang.
Last September, after rising to captain England at the Commonwealth Games when captain Heather Knight was injured, I decided to Take a break for her mental health.
“It was something I felt I needed because of the previous six months to a year,” Sciver-Brunt says.
“That’s it, it’s not built, but it took over my head a little bit.”
The first public sign she was struggling came when the overpowered and uncertain Sciver-Brunt gave an interview after she nearly nailed a stunning win for the Trent Rockets against the Southern Brave in shutout hundreds last September.
Eight months later, she spoke publicly about her decision, a room of five reporters silently holding each word.
“I haven’t seen the interview and I really don’t want to,” Sciver-Brunt says.
“I know what you said and I think it was exactly how I was feeling at the time. It was probably the first interview in a month that I was able to get through without crying.”
Live on Sky Sports, Sciver-Brunt talks about the hardships of life on the treadmill of professional sport.
“Sometimes when you’ve been home for two or three days you think about putting the laundry away, unpacking your bag and repacking it soon after, being able to get a few things to help me shut up and not think about what’s going to happen and just be in the moment a little bit more.. I find that very difficult,” she said.
Six days later, Sciver-Brunt announced her resignation, ruling her out of the series against India.
Hundreds came at the end of an eight-month period as England surprisingly missed out on a Commonwealth medal, missing 50 in the World Cup final in New Zealand and beating Australia in the Ashes.
“I talked to a clinical psychologist a few times and tried to think specifically about the Commonwealth Games and how it went and how it affected me, which was probably the main driver of needing to go home,” Sciver-Brunt says.
“I did things that were on my to-do list for a year. Just be happy at home, do nature things, mow the lawn, take the dog for a walk.”
Sciver-Brunt, who will play for Trent Rockets in The Hundred again later this summer, has been a regular starter for England since 2013.
For a generation fans, commentators, pundits, and perhaps players too, thought: “Nat’s still out there. And England will be fine.”
It comes with its own pressures.
“Maybe I’ve had this expectation on myself for a lot longer than you’re saying,” she says.
“That was the role I wanted to play. I want to be in the tough moments and influence the game every time I touch the ball or whatever it is.
“Maybe it’s my fault too. It seems to work most of the time but not everything.”
Skiver Brent returned in December, and by February he was again dominating the World Cup, though unable to prevent a disappointing semi-final exit from England.
After averaging 72 with the bat in South Africa, she led the Mumbai Indians to the title in the FA Women’s Premier League, winning the Player of the Match award in the final.
Sciver-Brunt may have been signed for £320,000 – the second highest fee for an outside player in the WPL – but it’s measured off the field as well as on it.
“I just bought a new phone and a watch, not much,” she says of her new earnings.
“I’m a bit tight really. I also bought an Apple watch but who [Mumbai Indians owner] Ms. Ambani.”
Sciver-Brunt’s next challenge is just over a month away and is probably the toughest challenge in any sport.
The Ashes begin on June 22 against Australia’s Meg Lanning, who has won the past four World Cups and is undefeated in four Ashes series.
She will also be competing without wife Katherine, who has retired from the internationals.
Earlier this month, 20-year-old bowler Essie Wong boldly claimed that this summer is an “amazing time” to play for Australia.
Whether it was the wisecracking head of Sciver-Brunt, or simply the difference in two opposing personalities, the all-rounder struck a measured tone in discussing England’s chances.
“since  I have felt the ashes in my mind closer [to Australia] than I was before in terms of skill.”
“It’s just about whether we can do it in moments of pressure.
“In tournaments it’s the same. We’re doing really well, there’s pressure play [ending in defeat] And from that you learn but you can’t learn because the tournament is over.”
It remains to be seen if England can stop Australia.
With Sciver-Brunt so well placed both on and off the field, they’ll at least have a chance.